OOTD: Hello Helgas

Back in January, my friend Kevin spoiled me with a pair of Deandri Helga's for my nineteenth birthday. Deandri is a brand based in Los Angeles, California that design and sell their own clothing, shoes, and accessories (harnesses to be specific). I've been lusting over their handmade shoes for years now so I was ecstatic to finally get my hands on a pair of my own. (THEY ARE ABSOLUTELY GORGEOUS) Unfortunately, I've been pretty comfortable this past year when it came to fashion and dressing up so the Helgas have been collecting dust under my bed for the past eight months. -- I'm over staying stagnant and I'm currently in the process of becoming inspired and rediscovering my style because it's definitely more grown since high school. 

Gloomy days in the northwest call for all (or mostly all) black so I slipped into a mock neck leotard and paired my high waisted black skinnies over it. Added the "FUCK OFF" heart necklace my boyfriend gave me to keep the top from looking to empty. There wasn't much going on with my outfit in the first place so I decided to finally break in my statement shoes (which surprisingly aren't as uncomfortable as they look). I'm so in love with these Helgas and I grow an extra six inches with them on, so it's like a whole new world.

WHAT I'M WEARING: 

TOP: Black Sleeveless Mock Neck Leotard (Forever 21)

BOTTOM: Black High Waisted Skinny Jeans (Bullhead) 

ACCESSORIES: Gold "FUCK OFF" Heart Necklace (Tevin Vincent -- Gifted)

SHOES: Pale Pink Deandri Helgas (Deandri -- Gifted)

OUTERWEAR: Black Faux Leather Jacket (H&M)

OOTD: Out until wha? (11.14.13)

WHAT I'M WEARING:

LIPS: Nightmoth Lipliner by M.A.C + Sugar Plum Fairy Matte Lipstick by Wet N Wild.

HAT: Black Beanie from H&M.

TOP: Destroyed "OUT UNTIL DAWN" Drip Font T-Shirt from Forever 21.

BOTTOM: High Waisted Jeans from Silence & Noise.

OUTERWEAR: Monochrome Cropped Sleeve Geometric Cardigan thrifted (??), Olive Green Anorak borrowed.

SHOES: Black Lace Up Combat Boots.

ACCESSORIES: Gold/Silver Band Rings from H&M. Gold/Blue Eye Ring from H&M. Statement Ring thrifted.

Still on the hunt for a perfect pair of high waisted jeans to suit my ridiculously long torso. :(

Derek and Steven.

Infamous.

killahouston, seeyouinsamsara

Yours truly, Kevin Hoang of killahouston.blogspot.com, Jessica Le, and Derek Nguyen.

The group.

Derek decided to propose while waiting for the MAX.

All pictures taken by Steven BG Tran, (June 19, 2013).

Last Wednesday, two of my friends from the Bay came into town and it was only right for us Oregonians to bring them downtown for some good ole' exploration. But let me tell you, Oregon is probably the only state where you can get a taste of all four seasons in a single day; luckily, we only got two. Before leaving the house, the sky was clear and the sun was shining so I decided to throw on a dusty pink maxi-dress I found at Ross for $8. I knew the sun wouldn't last for long so I added a faux leather moto-jacket to add some contrast to my otherwise boho and peasant-like outfit. Just so the leather jacket wasn't too out of place, I wore some black combat boots and I added a gold/black triangle

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necklace to add some interest to the whole thing. 

As soon as the five of us reached our destination, it began pouring rain. Totally messed up my hair along with our mini photoshoot...

 Hah, kidding.
Somewhat.

WHAT I'M WEARING:

DRESS: Dusty Pink Peasant Maxi-Dress from Ross. ($8)

JACKET: Faux Leather Moto-Jacket from H&M. ($49.99)

SHOES: Black Combat Boots from Trends Shoes. ($30?)

BAG: Brown Messenger Bag from Cole Haan

ACCESSORIES: Black and gold Triangle Necklace from Pac Sun, random gold bangles and rings.

I also uploaded a new video on YouTube basically updating you on what's been going on in my world. It's been awhile since I've last filmed but I'm sure you can obviously tell by how awkward I am talking in front of a camera. Lol. Be sure to watch in HD and subscribe.

Senior Year - Outfit Recap.

OCTOBER 25, 2012. - Maybe cause I'm a dreamer and sleep is the cousin of death.

OCTOBER 14, 2012. - They're all ghosts with just voices.

OCTOBER 11, 2012. - I've learned to live half alive.

SEPTEMBER 7, 2012. - Free your own mind.

NOVEMBER 29, 2012. - Once the storm is over, you won't know how you made it through.

While going through the process of creating my blog, I was certain that the first post I publish must be dedicated to the year that started it all for me. I never once thought that I, Samantha San Antonio would want to pursue a career in this type of industry or even develop a deep thirst for fashion at that. I had begun acquiring a taste for the fashion world towards the end of my third year in high school. Of course, it was nothing too out there. I dipped my feet into the water by playing around with high waisted shorts, crop tops, and whatever else was trending at the time. (High-low skirts and dresses, I believe.) Whenever I felt as if my outfit was decent enough to share I'd bring on the mirror selfie, #ootd, and post it on instagram.

None of this became serious until a good friend of mine shot my senior portraits on the streets of downtown Portland. I remember my outfit clearly: black bustier, light washed high waisted shorts, a grey poncho cardigan, a black slouchy beanie, and my knock off JC suede Litas. I didn't realize that I'd actually enjoy the atmosphere being in front of a camera could bring you. Before the school year started, I decided to post one of my senior portraits onto a website called lookbook, where people and models around the world showcased their style. I began posting to pictures of my outfits throughout the year more frequently, loving both being in front of a camera as well as styling the outfit I was wearing. The more I posted, the more I thought that I wanted to become a model. Regardless of having all odds against me (I'm an inexperienced Asian standing at 5'7" with imperfect measurements and pretty much no bone structure at all), I continued to strive toward getting to where I want to be. By the beginning of the new year, my first photoshoot/collaboration with Urban Lace Jewelry, a local Portland company, was published in a local magazine. But because I was so focused on booking jobs and gaining experience, I slowly stopped using lookbook and the year had continued on.

Senior year was rough. By having to deal with loss, school itself, personal struggles, and the pressure of the future I lost my motivation toward modeling and realized that it wasn't the best option for me. Instead, I simply desired to be a part of the fashion industry. 

As for my style, I've embraced the fact that change is constant so I try to be open to all trends. Before all this, I had thought my sense of style was diverse but I realized that I  have a tendency to  I had a toughen up anything too feminine. As you can see, I'm obviously a sucker for beanies, thigh high socks, and anything distressed during the colder months but I'm all for the free spirited patterns and romantic boho style during the warmer seasons.